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“Waiting for that golden moment when fear and desire die, and only the unspeakable reality of love remains. “

Sunsets July 29, 2007

Filed under: my thoughts — smlwoman @ 9:15 pm


I love sunsets, and this is a pic of the sunset we had about four days ago.  It was so magnificent and firey orange that I pulled over on the freeway to take a couple of pics.  This is one of them.  Every time I see them I think of how God can make something beautiful out of something so bad.  Polution.  There is more to it then that, but without pollution we would not see a sunset the way we do now. 

Pollution softens the sky’s colors, because the particles of dust and dirt are scattered and are of varying sizes, so the wavelengths sunlight of light passing through the particles are mixed. This lets us see muted tones, more middle of the spectrum.

Only God could make something beautiful of something so ugly. 



Adoption in China

Filed under: China — smlwoman @ 8:12 pm

This is a blog I did a few months ago.  But it is very important to me so I am reposting it here too.


I just got off the phone with a woman who was looking for a nanny for seven children.  All of them adopted from other countries.  I told her she was living my dream.  She told me I better hurry up, starting May 1, 2007 China has new laws that take effect for adopting children from their country.  You now have to be married for at least two years if it is your first adoption, five years if it is a second marraige.  You have to be at least 30, but not older then 50.  And among many others, but the main ones that affect me besides finances, you can’t have a  body mass index (BMI) of  more than 40 for each parent.  Haven’t a clue what mine is, but I know it is above 40.  I was so excited to find out I could adopt from China being single, it is the one thing I can’t control in my life.  I can always lose weight, but getting married is a whole other ball game.  It is even harder or at least right up there with financial support.  Sometimes I wish I was a woman who slept all over the place or with any one who would so I could have a child of my own.  That is something I could control, but choose not to do to the best of my ability.  Believe it or not, it is not always an easy choice to stick by. I have failed in this area before.  I had high hopes for this dream, but today it was deflated drastically.  Funny, I was just talking to someone about patience and how hard it is to wait on God.  Here is the link I used to confirm what I had just found out.,2933,260391,00.html


I’m not tired!

Filed under: Children,Uncategorized — smlwoman @ 6:26 am

pineapple1.gif How many times has a child said this as you are preparing them for bed or a nap.  All the children I have ever worked with have said it and fall asleep within minutes from declaring their energy level.  Today was no exception.

I spent the day with my 2 year old nephew and his family at Wild Waters.  We had a blast, swam a lot, ate and drank, and did NOT take a nap.  “I’m not tired.” 

So we took the kids to ride the go-carts before heading home.  Seany and I were riding together.  He is not quite big enough to drive himself much to his dismay.  The line was long.  We waited three races before it was our turn.  I looked down at Seany and said, “We’re next!”  But he didn’t hear me.  He was standing there with his eyes closed, head against the chain link fence that seperated us from the race cars, and his little fingers entwined through the holes of the fence. 

He must have just needed a cat nap because five minutes later he was awake and ready to race!  He and I kicked butt out there on the track!  I let him put his one hand on the steering wheel so he feels like he is helping me drive.  However, it won’t be long until it is just him out there kicking butt on the raceway!  stitch11.gif