I was writing to a friend in WI and telling them about my plans to look into the three kids for adoption, when I saw that they are not accepting Home studies for them at this time. That means someone else is looking at them, they found a match, and they are no longer available for adoption. I thought I was still ok with something like this happening. But I am very surprised at how sad I am that they are no longer available. Even though I am happy someone is offering them a home. I am not going to look anymore until after my home study is done. I was praying for these children every day, and that gave me a bit of a bond to them. I didn’t even have a chance to turn in my application due to certain things they need to complete the application, like a physical, and a letter from my doctor saying that PMDD will not effect my ability to be a parent. I have to wait another month for that to happen. It is so very frustrating to not get a chance due to things out of my control. And I know, God’s ways are not my ways. And God has a plan. God is in Control. Etc., etc., etc. Maybe this is payback for not following through with facepainting at the lemmonaide stand Friday night. I guess I will write more when I am being more rational.